the cake is finished when electrified. wine toasts
over inky coals
from which is used to write names.
were they to find the remnants of the book
rats would drown in the crumbs. eat gray pages.
make the clouds look like sky starting at the last
edges.
burnt to gradient images left
in church phases. the cross of stainless
steel. stained glass partitions.
the cake is edible when digested as is
the masses. the physical equation of
remorse. ending in remittance. the seven foot
thick ocean of icing.
the terror of sand
as the waves of sugar hit the shore. the deafening
bluster of wind chimes. the binding washing
out the ill heated oven. heaving
heaving retching. rewarding the starved and
the sated.
I guess you could say ink and paper make the writer, and I guess that's why I choose not to use them.
Monday, November 19, 2018
Monday, November 5, 2018
the perfect me
know that
there's a mannequin in my chair
those waxy kind of thoughts
those waxy kind of cheeks
involuntarily replacing me
the shrouded cathedral
draped over melting plastic
resembles my rib cage
the cracked marble
the discolored ivory
the pearl pretending eyes
i no longer have to
eat
he's cultivated all the refuse
hidden it away
inside of me
i can be opened by magic
a can opener
is magic
something soft stabbed into my
intestines
while I watch for vanished lines
without knees I will walk into
forever places
hung with hallowed lights
they will preach florescent
the meals will be of sawdust stars
the wall dreary old cement
I will paint them with the graffiti equivalent
to the years of my life
I will be of plastic casings
a body to sell
until we are washed out
until we are formed into shiny islands
in a retching, gelatinous, blue sea
there's a mannequin in my chair
those waxy kind of thoughts
those waxy kind of cheeks
involuntarily replacing me
the shrouded cathedral
draped over melting plastic
resembles my rib cage
the cracked marble
the discolored ivory
the pearl pretending eyes
i no longer have to
eat
he's cultivated all the refuse
hidden it away
inside of me
i can be opened by magic
a can opener
is magic
something soft stabbed into my
intestines
while I watch for vanished lines
without knees I will walk into
forever places
hung with hallowed lights
they will preach florescent
the meals will be of sawdust stars
the wall dreary old cement
I will paint them with the graffiti equivalent
to the years of my life
I will be of plastic casings
a body to sell
until we are washed out
until we are formed into shiny islands
in a retching, gelatinous, blue sea
Wednesday, October 17, 2018
made up of stuff
in this carton
all the same everythings
always right side up
even the dead things. are left
standing
laughing crying
stuff & worried about. their
internal processes
especially their bowels. they were
in focus
like the growing face of mold
rotted and dotting the exterior limits
similarly afflicted with life. heavily
magnified by
our continued
and numerous failures
chewed upon by the already
gnarled cardboard of their
existence. at all corners the sun fell
like sunday morning drunks. pretending
the terror of monday's work. the terror
of the battle shaking the last infinitesimal
chill from the air
from out this carton. the cool
glass breaks. the long unintelligible
road.
all the same everythings
always right side up
even the dead things. are left
standing
laughing crying
stuff & worried about. their
internal processes
especially their bowels. they were
in focus
like the growing face of mold
rotted and dotting the exterior limits
similarly afflicted with life. heavily
magnified by
our continued
and numerous failures
chewed upon by the already
gnarled cardboard of their
existence. at all corners the sun fell
like sunday morning drunks. pretending
the terror of monday's work. the terror
of the battle shaking the last infinitesimal
chill from the air
from out this carton. the cool
glass breaks. the long unintelligible
road.
Monday, October 1, 2018
Accident
(they) were playing
(they were) not for what will
be
(they were shattered)
they were red blood
they were before the (stop)
(they were) could not be were they
to slow down
(they) were broken into living
pieces
they were (not to) make it out
alive
(they) were to be spun from the
wheel
they were to be (removed)
forever
they were to be not even
(remembered)
the were to be not even
(mourned)
they crossed back as ever
into grinding machine
(they were torn apart)
by flattening engines
they were never to (be)
again
(they were a mere moment
from death's crushing weight)
they were never to grasp
that (feeling)
they were made meaningless
by time's threads
(they were) not for what will
be
(they were shattered)
they were red blood
they were before the (stop)
(they were) could not be were they
to slow down
(they) were broken into living
pieces
they were (not to) make it out
alive
(they) were to be spun from the
wheel
they were to be (removed)
forever
they were to be not even
(remembered)
the were to be not even
(mourned)
they crossed back as ever
into grinding machine
(they were torn apart)
by flattening engines
they were never to (be)
again
(they were a mere moment
from death's crushing weight)
they were never to grasp
that (feeling)
they were made meaningless
by time's threads
Tuesday, August 14, 2018
rain drips
*
each blur drops from sky
reflected in its obscurity
the last day
*
*
a puddle to the past
threatens to boils over its edge
memories like sandbags
struggle defiantly in its wake
*
*
a trail turns off the rocky peak
taking with it the lives
seeking to challenge its fragile
immortality
*
each blur drops from sky
reflected in its obscurity
the last day
*
*
a puddle to the past
threatens to boils over its edge
memories like sandbags
struggle defiantly in its wake
*
*
a trail turns off the rocky peak
taking with it the lives
seeking to challenge its fragile
immortality
*
Tuesday, July 31, 2018
old memory
i might have left it
where i am go
ing it's like a deep
static tv green
you don't see those much
anymore
that purple wake
in green static
where i might have left it
but i am unsure how to turn the
dial
you don't see that much anymore
apart from the zenith repair shop
on bishop avenue
where the old static dies
and where it was left
when i was gone
all green and purple outlined
in yellow on that tv screen
where i am go
ing it's like a deep
static tv green
you don't see those much
anymore
that purple wake
in green static
where i might have left it
but i am unsure how to turn the
dial
you don't see that much anymore
apart from the zenith repair shop
on bishop avenue
where the old static dies
and where it was left
when i was gone
all green and purple outlined
in yellow on that tv screen
Tuesday, July 24, 2018
Lake Effect
forward the image groan
die above 400 feet of valley
they flooded it 100 years ago
buried in 39 seconds
your blueish skin
resembles sun painting the sky
against the gray waves
the cliff side is empty
it sends your blank face back
the rocks are a mirror
reflecting the other side
death is aluminum
a toy above severed trees
their stumps are green graves
that become eyes as you pass
the lake an open mouth of god
meant to swallow choke and moan
die above 400 feet of valley
they flooded it 100 years ago
buried in 39 seconds
your blueish skin
resembles sun painting the sky
against the gray waves
the cliff side is empty
it sends your blank face back
the rocks are a mirror
reflecting the other side
death is aluminum
a toy above severed trees
their stumps are green graves
that become eyes as you pass
the lake an open mouth of god
meant to swallow choke and moan
Friday, June 8, 2018
I love your gray cat what-s-his-name
what's the name without his legs
living in a tree stump in kesselwood forest
there are no badgers on the east coast
they haven't emigrated
but enough about
me and what in the hell is it like to climb
below the cavern walls
probably in 1983
first time I noticed you by the tin can water fountain
banging on the corrugated sides
what's that material
if he's talking about plastic
I wonder why? there wasn't fuck to give
to dead things because you'd have to bury the whole fucking thing
poor quality static makes everything
stage-like played through tape on a VHS
what's gotta give name on the fanzine
to cancelled children's programming
this place is not the gig it's the aforementioned before
chain-link prequel to the fence bitten through
what's it like to chew on the thing
to swallow the broken tubes
fuck if I know about any of this
of any of this fuck if i know
living in a tree stump in kesselwood forest
there are no badgers on the east coast
they haven't emigrated
but enough about
me and what in the hell is it like to climb
below the cavern walls
probably in 1983
first time I noticed you by the tin can water fountain
banging on the corrugated sides
what's that material
if he's talking about plastic
I wonder why? there wasn't fuck to give
to dead things because you'd have to bury the whole fucking thing
poor quality static makes everything
stage-like played through tape on a VHS
what's gotta give name on the fanzine
to cancelled children's programming
this place is not the gig it's the aforementioned before
chain-link prequel to the fence bitten through
what's it like to chew on the thing
to swallow the broken tubes
fuck if I know about any of this
of any of this fuck if i know
Super group; or semi-colon
can;t drink on the j;ob
fuck in buttered rice
it doesn;t exist; this character is like
the end of the world
the instruction booklet
is a training regime; sucking up the nail
gu;n
fuck the laugh track in the live show
the audience is a bullet in the cock; farming
is a fictitious waste
spilling out the humanoid power plant
stumble upon it; put the nee;dle on it
play the spinning flat ass earth
you can fuck with the midd;le; you can die
great text messages
fuck in buttered rice
it doesn;t exist; this character is like
the end of the world
the instruction booklet
is a training regime; sucking up the nail
gu;n
fuck the laugh track in the live show
the audience is a bullet in the cock; farming
is a fictitious waste
spilling out the humanoid power plant
stumble upon it; put the nee;dle on it
play the spinning flat ass earth
you can fuck with the midd;le; you can die
great text messages
Drawn lines; or drainage ditch
your pencil runs down the page
marking the journal for removal
a wide angle X
but drawn like a seat belt strap
pulled over the eyes
there were none
they go
there were none
without two lanes
not a car drives by
built like a trash truck
to pick up the razors
left rusty in
drainage gutters
cemented into street
not a hand turns
in any aspect ratio
not a mouth mimes
where'd it go
marking the journal for removal
a wide angle X
but drawn like a seat belt strap
pulled over the eyes
there were none
they go
there were none
without two lanes
not a car drives by
built like a trash truck
to pick up the razors
left rusty in
drainage gutters
cemented into street
not a hand turns
in any aspect ratio
not a mouth mimes
where'd it go
Monday, June 4, 2018
Maggot; or one coat of paint
They tell me
Paint these walls white
when I'm done
when I'm done
But
when I do I see maggots
when I do I see maggots
writhing in rough spaces
When you wipe your finger over them
leaving trails of caulk and smooth
leaving trails of caulk and smooth
You smother me in their bodies
I watch them replace my teeth
I watch them replace my teeth
Biting into the walls
despite of myself
despite of myself
I plant them deep
Friday, March 30, 2018
a shirt we could not afford
we didn't read our fortunes
because the tiles were supernaturally
clean
we pressed the cookie against our teeth
waiting for a phone to
dry
we soaked the paper with our pen
forwarding the bones to the mortgage
lender
we rested the morsels against our tongues
hoping they would dry before the first
bite
we would not hear about the future
in which we would come to
live
we wrapped the blood from the feast
in the shirts we could not
afford
we did not believe in words
we questioned what they would mean to
us
because the tiles were supernaturally
clean
we pressed the cookie against our teeth
waiting for a phone to
dry
we soaked the paper with our pen
forwarding the bones to the mortgage
lender
we rested the morsels against our tongues
hoping they would dry before the first
bite
we would not hear about the future
in which we would come to
live
we wrapped the blood from the feast
in the shirts we could not
afford
we did not believe in words
we questioned what they would mean to
us
Monday, March 19, 2018
two chapters
two chapters on an open page working their way away from each other
diverging into two threads the story goes in its own directions
from this point the sun looks back and forth over the word
fading imperceptibly the pages
the future is left out to disappear
the past is left over to vanish
from a distance the chapters unfurl as a single long page
the letters make thin unbroken lines like marching ants
their hills covered by overturned covers
the mystery unresolved is the title read backwards in gold
diverging into two threads the story goes in its own directions
from this point the sun looks back and forth over the word
fading imperceptibly the pages
the future is left out to disappear
the past is left over to vanish
from a distance the chapters unfurl as a single long page
the letters make thin unbroken lines like marching ants
their hills covered by overturned covers
the mystery unresolved is the title read backwards in gold
Wednesday, March 14, 2018
Green; a film
Quick flash
Cut to:
the spinach field gnashed between my toes the blood flowing
green in the lithe vapors
that from above feature the characteristic
of a soggy river's delta
Fade to:
outstretched arms for balance ambiguous arms
follow the perfect horizon of elbow rising to forearm gently downhill
to hands green haze of the sun
hallucinatory illusion of brushed
fingernails fleshy like stewed greens
Rehash
to hands green haze of the sun
hallucinatory illusion of brushed
fingernails fleshy like stewed greens
Rehash
Zoom out:
the imbalanced chemicals that circulate through the brain
plastic wrapped in flesh armored by the skull
dripping green tints of sweat
hazel reflections of
post-induction of tears transform the sky into a green void
muffle the soft steps paint the arms like a forest growth
reaching across toward the break darker greener darker
The End.
Wednesday, February 14, 2018
147 Twinkle
typing in strange, exotic places,
I have yet to discover the algorithm,
a destiny in digital immortality,
tho the white page of death has blinked many times
and pulled from me pieces of ancient signs,
arranged in blue-lined characters,
exhumed from burials along fiber-optic lay lines.
I have yet to discover the algorithm,
a destiny in digital immortality,
tho the white page of death has blinked many times
and pulled from me pieces of ancient signs,
arranged in blue-lined characters,
exhumed from burials along fiber-optic lay lines.
Tuesday, January 23, 2018
Worm.
darkness is how i see the outside of the car
darkness as if the terribleness of the inside of the car grew &
ranged outward in a cone shape
one that had been split and folded over several times
from all its softened sides it reached out with infinite lines
it engulfed the world
the inside out blackness of the car
metal frames surging it begot my dream
inside as my perception expands the only light was your drag
and the acrid smoke of green that floated flatly against the curled edges
marking out your shadow
then the light passing into my hand
my mouth
the taste bitter and drunk like the car filled my lungs
i thought aren't I going to work?
aren't I driving?
why is it so dark and why does the car feel inside out
prolapsed and growing larger beyond the window
becoming another inconceivable untenable space
burning between my fingers silenced by my breath
darkness as if the terribleness of the inside of the car grew &
ranged outward in a cone shape
one that had been split and folded over several times
from all its softened sides it reached out with infinite lines
it engulfed the world
the inside out blackness of the car
metal frames surging it begot my dream
inside as my perception expands the only light was your drag
and the acrid smoke of green that floated flatly against the curled edges
marking out your shadow
then the light passing into my hand
my mouth
the taste bitter and drunk like the car filled my lungs
i thought aren't I going to work?
aren't I driving?
why is it so dark and why does the car feel inside out
prolapsed and growing larger beyond the window
becoming another inconceivable untenable space
burning between my fingers silenced by my breath
Saturday, January 20, 2018
VA DMV: A classic picture show
When looking out at the rainbow
That rainbow which descends on bleak buildings
Those buildings branded DMV
To wonder at all the sorted numbers called lives mingling
To wonder at all the photos taken of their static faces
It's hard to imagine that a single thought by humanity has ever been profound
That rainbow which descends on bleak buildings
Those buildings branded DMV
To wonder at all the sorted numbers called lives mingling
To wonder at all the photos taken of their static faces
It's hard to imagine that a single thought by humanity has ever been profound
Necessary
Revolutionary
Borne with grand design
Imagination
It's hard to envision the assembled parts
Revolutionary
Borne with grand design
Imagination
It's hard to envision the assembled parts
aligned in each matching chair
as anything other than rats building their own cages
Thursday, January 18, 2018
Wind.
they've left the world
all of them
listen
they haven't made a sound
there used to be a continued hum
recurrent in the background
now I am alone
they've taken the voice with them
absence
comforts like a window pane
tho it is only glass
I can also break
like a sheet protects the body
from phantom chill
I was alone
where they had gone
listen
we'll never know
they can't tell us what they've heard
all of them
listen
they haven't made a sound
there used to be a continued hum
recurrent in the background
now I am alone
they've taken the voice with them
absence
comforts like a window pane
tho it is only glass
I can also break
like a sheet protects the body
from phantom chill
I was alone
where they had gone
listen
we'll never know
they can't tell us what they've heard
Tuesday, January 9, 2018
Glass.
ghosts stalk my cat in the dark corners of our apartment
every once in a while he'll notice them
with widening pupils he focuses on the void just over my shoulder
where phantoms lurk like the deep circles under my eyes
bruised shadows hidden behind a pane of glass
every once in a while he'll notice them
with widening pupils he focuses on the void just over my shoulder
where phantoms lurk like the deep circles under my eyes
bruised shadows hidden behind a pane of glass
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
No.
grown deep into ground
vision moved like a glacier
over the boulder field
bringing with it an old ice age
with every glare
the rocks bore witness
to my deliberate advance
my existence
they believed in it
as movement
it was this or the sky
which was deeper blue?
stones that crumbled to my endless breath
death crawled on its belly across the earth
the very cliff-faces were novels
to my impending glory
I drank heavy from the history of the world
growing into my own tomb
god pulled galaxies out of my frozen maw
chewing time
like a billion years worth of dying stars
vision moved like a glacier
over the boulder field
bringing with it an old ice age
with every glare
the rocks bore witness
to my deliberate advance
my existence
they believed in it
as movement
it was this or the sky
which was deeper blue?
stones that crumbled to my endless breath
death crawled on its belly across the earth
the very cliff-faces were novels
to my impending glory
I drank heavy from the history of the world
growing into my own tomb
god pulled galaxies out of my frozen maw
chewing time
like a billion years worth of dying stars
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