never future

It was rather raw.

    the bloody spot.     leaking valves.

Rubber not conducive to cleaning up the spill

only tongues of the willing will suffice.

Whether they be brought to heel or made to grovel

armor can only weigh down so much.

    luckily with no conscience to break.

only meat.     Cold deathless meat.    raw meat

fit snuggly into containment units

set with bullets for mortar.     burned out sockets.       salted and cured of sentimental value.  without eyes to see inward

the deathlike void reaches out

pulling itself inside.  

marked with no decision.  Taking every reward. 

Made of nothing concrete. 

Only violent. Only violence. Only now and then.

No new hires

drawing a crooked line to

                          this current dream

the face of nondescript mall

escalator to rolls

                            the floor i meet is not

the one

              recalled

i haven't been making the walls

of the memory

the vision is not waiting here for my return

only confusion of time

a lost place         a wretched belief

Peanuts

music   played like end credits

          eight years 

ago         reminded of cracked pavement

broad street

Newark    caramelized peanuts

     searching for 50c 

to make the down

                              payment

to continue to the river's edge

 to soak my brain away in the stream