the world bends and
my tires with it
i am within the clouds
but not of them.
I cannot see. Before me.
or behind.
a ghost that lives ten thousand miles
away.
A Magical Mistake
I guess you could say ink and paper make the writer, and I guess that's why I choose not to use them.
Tuesday, November 19, 2024
Blind
Our Present
I am like a can of yeungling passed
between hands reaching out from two
cars going the same direction
pressed into the cold night
drunken
streaking under overpass
fluorescent skin-like lights
headed for different unknowing
directions
spilling, shifting, heaving
toward the failed future we would
surely find
between hands reaching out from two
cars going the same direction
pressed into the cold night
drunken
streaking under overpass
fluorescent skin-like lights
headed for different unknowing
directions
spilling, shifting, heaving
toward the failed future we would
surely find
They are human houses
The vultures possess a human face
somewhere in the barrens
of a new jersey night
the corpse of a shanty--
collapsed roof
rotted boards
decorated with tall,
grey tombstones--
carcass pushed back from
crumbles of pavement
sentry faces obscured by yellow eyes
smiling
made of endless stone
carved into human eyes.
Wednesday, November 1, 2023
5 years
Remember as the sun set on James island
Barely there beach and we sat there
Tired
Together
in a blaze of red
Fading into the coming night
And how after heading back to our camp
An old man
stopping us
to show the pictures he had taken of
Our silhouettes together encircled by
Fiery dusk
How he asked for our emails
In effort to send the photos to us and
How we wrote them down
on
a piece of barely damp notebook paper
And how walking away you said
He's never going to send them
Because he was going to jerk off to them
And recall how I'm sitting here tonight
Still waiting for those photos even though
It's been what, five years?
Wednesday, June 28, 2023
Dreams this morning
Vague
I couldn't know
where you were taking me;
fleeting memories;
my eyes watching your fingers
curl
to last mists of the morning;
a yellow sky
a life I had left;
losing the last threads of
remembering;
how did I come to remain here
watching you open your eyes?
Tuesday, February 15, 2022
my mother was a sunshine of memory
I
there was a short walkway to the duplex
around which japanese beetles swarmed
my mother was a sunshine of memory yellow at
the back of my neck
she illuminated the pavement that soon
would cease to be my world
II
on Belmont ave alone with a baseball bat
I swung and took the life of a swarm of firefly
I have long ago forgotten their names
I have since lived in regret and supplication
their death lights remind me of the faces of dead cats
our neighbors killed.
III
In my dreams I am tormented by two places
a small infinitely growing patch of grass at
the end of a long suburban street
a gray hulking jug shaped water tower
watching from a distance.
IV
30 years ago I leapt from the top of the
tallest slide in the world
in my memory they have left it standing
after all these years.
Friday, January 28, 2022
Parallel Dystopia
forward to come to the
place of hanging wire
the autumn of electric civilization
moss growth on the canopy towers
walking alone
the cables droop like my steps
as sinking into pot holes I watch
into the long lonely paved distance
there is no ride coming to tell of the here now
end of time
I am in possession
of the last threadbare pair
of mournful jeans
the last immutable skeletal remains
a faint clicking of branches
brings the final static fall
of the human forest
blinding smoke whiter than ancient
cloud bodies drift over the corpse of
the summer afternoon
there is no temperature left
all the mercury having sunk
into my skin
I can no longer find pockets
for my bloodied hands
I can no longer find skin
to cover their naked flesh
the distant shriek of amnesiac
cell phones have replaced even
the oldest bird song
the last human voice lost to antiquity
leaving a message I am not
sure I understand
Saturday, January 22, 2022
Darkness
I keep the door closed
my hands crack against the fault line
it breaks like the spine of a book
folding back spilling letters out
the pages rain slowly slipping
under the rug
I wonder if the door could open
without me were I to wait
there isn't anything left inside
the sound of breath that are not mine
the growing distance between myself and the cold
a window pane peering behind its own eyes
sees nothing but the light
Thursday, January 20, 2022
party
Standing in that kitchen
The cold tile glowing radiantly under the dying oven light
Late into the morning late into the evening
Leaning against the loose knobs of the cold stove top
Coming down from mushroom acid drunk trip holding a can of beer in my hand
feeling the open flesh under finger nails
Listening to you laugh and the sounds of your voices
echoing into the darkened walls of the old house I was waiting for the universe
To halt itself in momentary standstill to split into a billion known possibilities
to reach the end of its endless trek into the ever sharpening void
Standing in that kitchen wanting to hold each of you forever screaming
into the abyss of timeless nothing-ness and shadow
Sitting here tonight alone under the foggy light of a winter moon
wishing it all had come true
Thursday, December 9, 2021
rambling buttons
the button has evolved into
a noiseless vacuum for sound
spilling out unconscionable
silent lies twisted in fabricated knots
clinging to the pasts of the
world they are in nameless
ways a detailed map
of the future rot of post-
cyber-space frontiers
the plastic encased forests of the afterlife
conceptual landscape
forbidden in un-digitized
scripts
the button has been transformed
by formidable lies arranged by
present visions of mankind
wrapped in napkins and placed
rather lovingly in the trashcans
of the once bountiful regions
formerly known as the silicon
west.
Wednesday, December 8, 2021
Heavy
the last episode of a particular chapter
translated
I buried it
in the remains of the backyard
under the violet sky
as the moon looked down
disparagingly
I tried not to picture its eyes
glowing against my back
I tore my hands at the digging
I cut the ground with my tears
I placed a stone upon its head
as the moon fell behind the collapsed roof
as the rising clouds peered up
I took out my hands
I drew a corpse
into their rusted breath
uncertainly
I wonder when times moves across the trees
dragging the clouds I wonder what will become
of the hours it takes to erase the grass I wonder
what will be built upon those memories we have
almost forgotten I wonder how the glass will break
down and becoming sand I wonder what will the plants
be like that take my place
Monday, December 6, 2021
time to write a poem about covid and false memories of the past
you could swim at the far end of the tent. at 4am the temperature was steadily
falling toward the floor. it would be hours until the sun rose about the spires
that stood in for the trees of our past. there were no sounds that could be made
into car engines. you said it yourself we are truly alone.
there was nothing beyond the lake but the wreck of the next several years.
they reminded me of the isolation I had grown to know in the past. where we
were going would we would need to swim. downriver. we only had left one
change of clothes.
the seasons worked in reverse until they were children again. when the world
would be faded at the edges with the liminal fragrances of the cathode tubes.
something haunting and safe. to scare their shadows into abeyance again.
to find what was lost they plunged their faces in. they bit and tore at the veins
we drank until there was nothing
you wept for any thing else left.
on purpose
I am upstairs
looking like the leaves
falling from those trees
I can see outside the window
the motion of branches
blowing in the winddraws my attention
to puddles of red and yellow
in the street
a ups driver navigates
a gray circle of concrete
the dead end turn
the bleak future straight ahead
he doesn't touch a single leaf
Friday, September 17, 2021
everywhere
Hidden away in the bathroom
the tiles are left wordless
Cold and lifeless too
Evey poem is a failed self-portrait
I am here too
making it up as I go along
Kept from the stars by windowpane
Kept from reality by the door
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