lil' ruddy face.
flush checks doe eyed.
shock of blond hair scout cap.
american child androgynous
complexion.
uncle sam sleeve cufflinked.
imperial hand slapped over lil' mouth.
deep red hand.
thick red hand red white & blue.
open palmed roughly
size of your child's skull
written--
--not whispered--not
spoken--not said--
hard black font bold capital letters
SILENCE MEANS SECURITY.
I guess you could say ink and paper make the writer, and I guess that's why I choose not to use them.
Friday, March 31, 2017
Two Bodies
says,
'have you gone west? all the way west?
west?'
she says, nothing,
she says, comatose,
'I have been ocean to ocean
seen the sea cuts the middle cuts
in between, cuts world in half,'
he says,
not noticing, not seeing, her twitch
uncomfortable,
she, speaks,
unheard of sentences,
she wrote once, before tomorrow, before all this
'what an awful occurrence, an awful thing, an
awful poem, why?
isn't there one story worth it to tell?'
he could make no sense of it, remorse,
talking to himself,
she says,
a jumble of wrath, moving lips,
uncaring,
'I am a great man.'
he wrote, hoping it was true
making it so, by the great action
of pen, hoping she wouldn't laugh,
already vengeful, hating her,
'I said I enjoyed it. That it was good.
What more do you want?'
she says, wondering why to care,
where to go next,
how to respond.
'have you gone west? all the way west?
west?'
she says, nothing,
she says, comatose,
'I have been ocean to ocean
seen the sea cuts the middle cuts
in between, cuts world in half,'
he says,
not noticing, not seeing, her twitch
uncomfortable,
she, speaks,
unheard of sentences,
she wrote once, before tomorrow, before all this
'what an awful occurrence, an awful thing, an
awful poem, why?
isn't there one story worth it to tell?'
he could make no sense of it, remorse,
talking to himself,
she says,
a jumble of wrath, moving lips,
uncaring,
'I am a great man.'
he wrote, hoping it was true
making it so, by the great action
of pen, hoping she wouldn't laugh,
already vengeful, hating her,
'I said I enjoyed it. That it was good.
What more do you want?'
she says, wondering why to care,
where to go next,
how to respond.
Labels:
a thought,
conversation,
mind,
poem,
poetry
Thursday, March 30, 2017
That Day
The first alteration--
--after it--the change in line
in sky color--in tomorrow's dance
--in the color I've bled--when
I'm of the earth in blue--
--in white heavy cloud
when I'm under it--singing
--not in voice--vibration
when the ground is channel--
--bounce--right--there's nothing--
only forward--not time forward
--land sea mountain river canyon
grass gorge river ocean eye forward--
--mind forward--might I call out
shook with lightning--forge--ahead
in the rest--everlasting next life
--calling--
gray river--
--grant life
new--life--
currents--clear stream--
--a delta--the next alteration
of--the filament--sundered
--the surface the me the you the
above--the stars tree line etched
upon its face in darkest silhouette
--the screaming violet night--
the blazing day remade--rebirth--
--un-sexed--clothed in green
landscape--velvet--
--rocks split by cold seep
the rushing spring late
--the ground swell--fire
fire--
--fire--doesn't burn--
reforged--
--bound for next understanding
wrapped written worn on
western surge--
--the last alteration--
--after it--the change in line
in sky color--in tomorrow's dance
--in the color I've bled--when
I'm of the earth in blue--
--in white heavy cloud
when I'm under it--singing
--not in voice--vibration
when the ground is channel--
--bounce--right--there's nothing--
only forward--not time forward
--land sea mountain river canyon
grass gorge river ocean eye forward--
--mind forward--might I call out
shook with lightning--forge--ahead
in the rest--everlasting next life
--calling--
gray river--
--grant life
new--life--
currents--clear stream--
--a delta--the next alteration
of--the filament--sundered
--the surface the me the you the
above--the stars tree line etched
upon its face in darkest silhouette
--the screaming violet night--
the blazing day remade--rebirth--
--un-sexed--clothed in green
landscape--velvet--
--rocks split by cold seep
the rushing spring late
--the ground swell--fire
fire--
--fire--doesn't burn--
reforged--
--bound for next understanding
wrapped written worn on
western surge--
--the last alteration--
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
Fugitive
Here
huddled in and blending
with coffee shop stools
four o clock is an hour before I should be free
windows play at being walls
everyone
can look in
upon my caged
stare
(there are many operatives here)
(Many from which to steer clear)
(believe me)
glances they cast sidelong from lip
of coffee mug
mark my destination
place
time
name
character
MO
they remember my face
one I'm wearing today
pixelated
contour graphed on hand held meme
(they're out to get me)
(cliched)
out to wrestle from me
the feeling
that
I
should
be
free
when sick one should be safely stowed away
(back home)
but you're here
you're here
you're here
how come?
you care to explain this, young man [NAME]?
--they cinch the handcuffs on
--do you care to explain they lock the cell
--how that came to be? you incriminate yourself
huddled in and blending
with coffee shop stools
four o clock is an hour before I should be free
windows play at being walls
everyone
can look in
upon my caged
stare
(there are many operatives here)
(Many from which to steer clear)
(believe me)
glances they cast sidelong from lip
of coffee mug
mark my destination
place
time
name
character
MO
they remember my face
one I'm wearing today
pixelated
contour graphed on hand held meme
(they're out to get me)
(cliched)
out to wrestle from me
the feeling
that
I
should
be
free
when sick one should be safely stowed away
(back home)
but you're here
you're here
you're here
how come?
you care to explain this, young man [NAME]?
--they cinch the handcuffs on
--do you care to explain they lock the cell
--how that came to be? you incriminate yourself
All the beauty of grammar school
who is it could know me?
clothes melting away
what an effort to put into decorum
decorations are seasonally lost oblique--
statues?
stride upon the cracked street system,
home and how many many godly rivers flow
invisibly
under our feet
much life is buried under toe.
what a life for ants
the finite spiral down
towards mathematical
conceit.
if we could only run the numbers of truth
for monetary gain
on the lam from the
cosmic bookie for all time
gamble with beautiful equations
as star ending constellations
hidden from our sight
pulled down to great earth
from the wretched heavens.
clothes melting away
what an effort to put into decorum
decorations are seasonally lost oblique--
statues?
stride upon the cracked street system,
home and how many many godly rivers flow
invisibly
under our feet
much life is buried under toe.
what a life for ants
the finite spiral down
towards mathematical
conceit.
if we could only run the numbers of truth
for monetary gain
on the lam from the
cosmic bookie for all time
gamble with beautiful equations
as star ending constellations
hidden from our sight
pulled down to great earth
from the wretched heavens.
life of vols.
uneven, yellow gut, bound scuffed leather skin,
stretched to weaken, stuck with ancient glue,
chipped, dry, chipping;
facing up to white tile
heaven, several infernal layers high;
beat to shit
by clumsy groping fingers, oil years, oil, years
oil, grease, ignored;
edges fold, looking back,
locked in place, time, stance, break, spinal
snap, rest on floor, under shoes, weathered away,
running from, removed, broken home;
only the word
holds meaning, printer pressed, scanned and saved,
backed up, addressed, renamed, right on digital screen
tossed spent to metal cans, endless shape, or leaning
lost totems on dusty shelf.
stretched to weaken, stuck with ancient glue,
chipped, dry, chipping;
facing up to white tile
heaven, several infernal layers high;
beat to shit
by clumsy groping fingers, oil years, oil, years
oil, grease, ignored;
edges fold, looking back,
locked in place, time, stance, break, spinal
snap, rest on floor, under shoes, weathered away,
running from, removed, broken home;
only the word
holds meaning, printer pressed, scanned and saved,
backed up, addressed, renamed, right on digital screen
tossed spent to metal cans, endless shape, or leaning
lost totems on dusty shelf.
Monday, March 27, 2017
Thinking I might not be here
Here i am
in front seat
foot upon wheel
knees bent
slouched
the windows of the two door cracked
wind worries by
rushed along by condo skyline
car double parked in
i find no reflection in the endless
glass house line
i watch for cars running through me or bodies or lines
maybe i'm no longer here?
maybe i'm immovable
maybe i'm the gray sky
maybe it's just sunday afternoon.
in front seat
foot upon wheel
knees bent
slouched
the windows of the two door cracked
wind worries by
rushed along by condo skyline
car double parked in
i find no reflection in the endless
glass house line
i watch for cars running through me or bodies or lines
maybe i'm no longer here?
maybe i'm immovable
maybe i'm the gray sky
maybe it's just sunday afternoon.
Make-Up
My teeth clenched and shuddering
will
break the world.
Listen I have done all this in my own words
on my dry skin
is written not a single word
only faded scars
I had hoped would never fade.
Having only memory
even that imagined
I am left to invent greater, even more terrible, lies.
a multitude & many
all of this being one
where I bite down
and the rain answers
oh
drowning this attempt at resuscitation
soak & prune thy skin
and replace
I am unworthy of truth
there are none
there is none
there is no
there are no
no
no
no no no
no
look into these scars for they will soon be gone
and no one
will remember them
always
anyway
after all
ever after.
will
break the world.
Listen I have done all this in my own words
on my dry skin
is written not a single word
only faded scars
I had hoped would never fade.
Having only memory
even that imagined
I am left to invent greater, even more terrible, lies.
a multitude & many
all of this being one
where I bite down
and the rain answers
oh
drowning this attempt at resuscitation
soak & prune thy skin
and replace
I am unworthy of truth
there are none
there is none
there is no
there are no
no
no
no no no
no
look into these scars for they will soon be gone
and no one
will remember them
always
anyway
after all
ever after.
Son
the many legged mile folding the road up,
tomorrow, that was my mistake, the first use of the word
is still with me
and without effort I recall,
I AM BOUNDLESS.
the cracks in the pavement think remarkable things,
grow greater,
only to fall apart,
I read aloud their last will and testament, forge my future
in their hand,
sign and date along the line
along the bottom.
tomorrow, that was my mistake, the first use of the word
is still with me
and without effort I recall,
I AM BOUNDLESS.
the cracks in the pavement think remarkable things,
grow greater,
only to fall apart,
I read aloud their last will and testament, forge my future
in their hand,
sign and date along the line
along the bottom.
Writ in Blu
fit between these covers
blue ink
fine points of human life. many spills
make a line.
I am the only one who I was
at death. Does that mean the cycle repeats
or not? After death? or
ever life?
This poem is the sunset.
Until you catch
the clouds moaning or the cars.
But that could have been the road. It just
goes.
On--
without us
making those sad sounds into
periscope night skies.
The orbs that are headlights
lead the masquerade.
blue ink
fine points of human life. many spills
make a line.
I am the only one who I was
at death. Does that mean the cycle repeats
or not? After death? or
ever life?
This poem is the sunset.
Until you catch
the clouds moaning or the cars.
But that could have been the road. It just
goes.
On--
without us
making those sad sounds into
periscope night skies.
The orbs that are headlights
lead the masquerade.
Thursday, March 23, 2017
Sign of the Dog
saw your sign glance by
lost since last august
no update on sad face dog
last seen exiting the front door of a house on prince st
running east
Doesn't answer to his name/may run from stranger steps
another sign
read ASSN.
as ASIAN, hmmm.
you'd think maybe like a bilingual school
or history
could be?
as
ASSN. of Educators and Lecturers
ASSN. like an Association like an abbr.
meaning
parking spots
for members meaning
that was a sign
for sure
warning for tow implicit throughout
explicitly measured out below
and other words of white on blue field
like
the first sign
blocks of text
the general gist
is already wearing thin
two blocks past into tomorrow
the dog
beside downward stare
what did it look like?
the dog that's just a dog
were there any cars?
parked in the lot?
educators?
was there even a school?
how many months
have been lost
since august?
lost since last august
no update on sad face dog
last seen exiting the front door of a house on prince st
running east
Doesn't answer to his name/may run from stranger steps
another sign
read ASSN.
as ASIAN, hmmm.
you'd think maybe like a bilingual school
or history
could be?
as
ASSN. of Educators and Lecturers
ASSN. like an Association like an abbr.
meaning
parking spots
for members meaning
that was a sign
for sure
warning for tow implicit throughout
explicitly measured out below
and other words of white on blue field
like
the first sign
blocks of text
the general gist
is already wearing thin
two blocks past into tomorrow
the dog
beside downward stare
what did it look like?
the dog that's just a dog
were there any cars?
parked in the lot?
educators?
was there even a school?
how many months
have been lost
since august?
Friday, March 17, 2017
Current Issue
On back,
man
they pour down fire
they pour up the smoke
they dig into the back for heavy lead
underground
gorge on bedrock
chew iron spit steel
balk at untouchable things
they fuck it up,
man
they really fuck it up
searching for that next land
next swath of wood
next treasure trove
nobody think
ask the tortoise
how he feel,
man
nobody give a fuck
we boil the soup at whatever temp
them directions say
eat that shit up
stuff leftovers in plastic bags
fuck cares if they rot,
man
you hear what they say?
nothing makes any god damn sense
all propaganda
you're trying to step off
who won't let you
we tell ya gotta go,
man
the back
how many years old?
we're nothing
if we don't keep on spending
then what?
using these gifts
resources left behind to what?
another body will burn them
what a waste,
man
think
all those starling beyond our grasp
more showing light every day
if we could only reach them
pull them into the below
wouldn't it be cushy then?
man
wouldn't it be grand
don't they belong to us?
you and me?
man
already?
man
they pour down fire
they pour up the smoke
they dig into the back for heavy lead
underground
gorge on bedrock
chew iron spit steel
balk at untouchable things
they fuck it up,
man
they really fuck it up
searching for that next land
next swath of wood
next treasure trove
nobody think
ask the tortoise
how he feel,
man
nobody give a fuck
we boil the soup at whatever temp
them directions say
eat that shit up
stuff leftovers in plastic bags
fuck cares if they rot,
man
you hear what they say?
nothing makes any god damn sense
all propaganda
you're trying to step off
who won't let you
we tell ya gotta go,
man
the back
how many years old?
we're nothing
if we don't keep on spending
then what?
using these gifts
resources left behind to what?
another body will burn them
what a waste,
man
think
all those starling beyond our grasp
more showing light every day
if we could only reach them
pull them into the below
wouldn't it be cushy then?
man
wouldn't it be grand
don't they belong to us?
you and me?
man
already?
Monday, March 13, 2017
Alarms
thunder that shakes city street
is the risen crane's body
rain to keep the drills wet
burrowed under sewer grates
'cross town with uber fare
a pleasurable hell
you who would seek escape
I
grant
you
Three (3)
days Leave
Now! Go!
find your "peace"
how many days have you paid?
what was the cost?
answer is silence
silence is midnight when the subway is quiet
when the meter has rung
the morning cracks with the weight of alarm
work begins when you breathe.
is the risen crane's body
rain to keep the drills wet
burrowed under sewer grates
'cross town with uber fare
a pleasurable hell
you who would seek escape
I
grant
you
Three (3)
days Leave
Now! Go!
find your "peace"
how many days have you paid?
what was the cost?
answer is silence
silence is midnight when the subway is quiet
when the meter has rung
the morning cracks with the weight of alarm
work begins when you breathe.
Created
She draws her finger at the edge
flow goes the river life flows
she forms the jagged shores cleft
crash comes the oceans
she rolls the dough west
rise holy mountain
she drinks the waters of life
dry the deserts the salt sea
she kisses your mouth
your lungs fill gasp
she becomes the cloud
that is blue up rain & snow
she became the green & mud
for your feet to walk stand
she is the invisible miles
in year & time & distance
you will walk
she was the space
that circles back forward
forever
she will be the us that is you
that is child
that is me
that is always
that is ever
that will be
flow goes the river life flows
she forms the jagged shores cleft
crash comes the oceans
she rolls the dough west
rise holy mountain
she drinks the waters of life
dry the deserts the salt sea
she kisses your mouth
your lungs fill gasp
she becomes the cloud
that is blue up rain & snow
she became the green & mud
for your feet to walk stand
she is the invisible miles
in year & time & distance
you will walk
she was the space
that circles back forward
forever
she will be the us that is you
that is child
that is me
that is always
that is ever
that will be
Creator
offers the bottle up
take it down
to your lips
the ruby red
on your neck
the ruby river
on your teeth
the ruby mark
on your throat
the ruby drink
in your belly
the ruby mountain
on your fingers
the ruby life
in your hands
the ruby course
take it down
to your lips
the ruby red
on your neck
the ruby river
on your teeth
the ruby mark
on your throat
the ruby drink
in your belly
the ruby mountain
on your fingers
the ruby life
in your hands
the ruby course
Creations
world bends on corner
long the window wall
shadows provide cover
make life dance for my hands
under me the bodies
sealed in concrete holes
impaled with steel beams
madness
raised up raised up
the sky
it's full of them it's full
towering above the earth
made rituals from space
mad sigils from space
etched across the greatness
tells the story of the start
long the window wall
shadows provide cover
make life dance for my hands
under me the bodies
sealed in concrete holes
impaled with steel beams
madness
raised up raised up
the sky
it's full of them it's full
towering above the earth
made rituals from space
mad sigils from space
etched across the greatness
tells the story of the start
Thursday, March 9, 2017
We have what we came for
waiting
waiting
waiting to pull the metal coffin
to its place
and when
when it returns
stacked atop with bodies
waiting
waiting
waiting to push it back
to forget
where it has been
only
only where it left its remains
waiting
waiting
waiting to retrieve
more markings
more corpses
more legs
more trees
a shriek on rolling wheel
again it goes forth
again there it is
again
waiting
waiting
waiting always waiting
countless eyes
hands
hearts
burial mounds
regurgitated
replayed
rewound
waiting.
waiting
waiting to pull the metal coffin
to its place
and when
when it returns
stacked atop with bodies
waiting
waiting
waiting to push it back
to forget
where it has been
only
only where it left its remains
waiting
waiting
waiting to retrieve
more markings
more corpses
more legs
more trees
a shriek on rolling wheel
again it goes forth
again there it is
again
waiting
waiting
waiting always waiting
countless eyes
hands
hearts
burial mounds
regurgitated
replayed
rewound
waiting.
Dust
This
here.
This dust
Settles one atom at a time
slowly to
bury
what little past remains
the
sediment of
memory
left little
by
little
at the bottom end
of
thought.
Where were you when you remembered
all
those little
failures
suffering a multitude of fossilized
layers
below
those funny dying things
shriveled up
that made me love
the
way
I
was
and you smile
at the
desert
that has become you
and you
and
I
and dust
above & underneath
here.
This dust
Settles one atom at a time
slowly to
bury
what little past remains
the
sediment of
memory
left little
by
little
at the bottom end
of
thought.
Where were you when you remembered
all
those little
failures
suffering a multitude of fossilized
layers
below
those funny dying things
shriveled up
that made me love
the
way
I
was
and you smile
at the
desert
that has become you
and you
and
I
and dust
above & underneath
Compound
Against the walls
outside
heat from those million miles
falls flat on lifeless concrete
shaped by the machine hand
of man
tucked within its belly
fed on artificial
radioactive
weaponized light
the constricting
snake
conscripted
by 3D blue print masks
masquerading prisons
dropped on endless maps
endless hours
endless pages
outside
heat from those million miles
falls flat on lifeless concrete
shaped by the machine hand
of man
tucked within its belly
fed on artificial
radioactive
weaponized light
the constricting
snake
conscripted
by 3D blue print masks
masquerading prisons
dropped on endless maps
endless hours
endless pages
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Rings
the bay was a bowl
of crystal waves
and golden sun,
we left footprints
in auburn sand
side by side,
we were the ocean,
the mountain, tree,
the sky,
far from home; far
from home, the
torea pango cried,
silent the stars rose
against the night,
the dark blue cape
of the world,
the southern moon
danced on the shore,
outlines your hair,
you reached
for my hand as
the day fell,
I held onto your heart,
you held mine.
of crystal waves
and golden sun,
we left footprints
in auburn sand
side by side,
we were the ocean,
the mountain, tree,
the sky,
far from home; far
from home, the
torea pango cried,
silent the stars rose
against the night,
the dark blue cape
of the world,
the southern moon
danced on the shore,
outlines your hair,
you reached
for my hand as
the day fell,
I held onto your heart,
you held mine.
Rebellious Sheep
un-sheared
hidden among the hills
batches of green earth
below the current rises
untouchable electric fences
whirl
all your flock is naked
there on the other side
each car to wind
the road's bend
an informant
a traitor
a Sheppard;
they won't take you alive.
hidden among the hills
batches of green earth
below the current rises
untouchable electric fences
whirl
all your flock is naked
there on the other side
each car to wind
the road's bend
an informant
a traitor
a Sheppard;
they won't take you alive.
Blue Pool
float in
the god's eye
clear pool
green lashes
old old
mountains
is it blue?
see the sky
wink back
up there
or down
here?
the god's eye
clear pool
green lashes
old old
mountains
is it blue?
see the sky
wink back
up there
or down
here?
Re-Forested
checkered plots of
tree
deforested originals
reclaimed
by immigrant seed
towering
red woods
far far from home
tropical forests
grown
to the hum of saw
wait
to be cut
and sold whole blocks
gently removed
remodeled
patiently stewing
on one hundred years
the next
technological extravagance
cleared out
plowed
hills
re-planted
turned to gold
tree
deforested originals
reclaimed
by immigrant seed
towering
red woods
far far from home
tropical forests
grown
to the hum of saw
wait
to be cut
and sold whole blocks
gently removed
remodeled
patiently stewing
on one hundred years
the next
technological extravagance
cleared out
plowed
hills
re-planted
turned to gold
Splendor
in come the cruise ships
their many windowed hulls
lulling on jade seas
washing their decks on a
thousand water falling cliffs;
at milford sound;
if man has one great strength
it is to make the grand
small and commonplace
and the trivial
majestic and adored.
their many windowed hulls
lulling on jade seas
washing their decks on a
thousand water falling cliffs;
at milford sound;
if man has one great strength
it is to make the grand
small and commonplace
and the trivial
majestic and adored.
Friday, March 3, 2017
The Yolk of Conversion
beware man
the yoke is dripping
see it
swept under welcome mats
and city sewer system grates
environmental protection stickers
rune frog carvings calked down
beginning to be forever
the end
what's happening inside?
I'm out here
we're all out here
no worries it's not too cold
the weather is fine
I think
I felt it long ago that the memory
still aches and heats my bones
or is that the fire
ha
you can never tell well
what was I saying something
about well it's not important
otherwise
I'd have remembered
it
it was you know where we were
just trace back the threads
pulling at the conversation
it could have been someone else
I tell the same stories all the time
did I tell you
this seems
like a blanket response it's not
I was saying something
you were standing right there
listening
about the city
and the clouds and forever
starting right now
see
I thought so I'm forgetting myself
these days
isn't that strange
to remember you're forgetting yourself
spinning in circles at the door
that's when I recalled I'd asked you
about coming inside
and when
you broke
all the where was I yeah
you broke all the damn eggs
standing there throwing them
against the
wall
standing outside
the yoke is dripping
see it
swept under welcome mats
and city sewer system grates
environmental protection stickers
rune frog carvings calked down
beginning to be forever
the end
what's happening inside?
I'm out here
we're all out here
no worries it's not too cold
the weather is fine
I think
I felt it long ago that the memory
still aches and heats my bones
or is that the fire
ha
you can never tell well
what was I saying something
about well it's not important
otherwise
I'd have remembered
it
it was you know where we were
just trace back the threads
pulling at the conversation
it could have been someone else
I tell the same stories all the time
did I tell you
this seems
like a blanket response it's not
I was saying something
you were standing right there
listening
about the city
and the clouds and forever
starting right now
see
I thought so I'm forgetting myself
these days
isn't that strange
to remember you're forgetting yourself
spinning in circles at the door
that's when I recalled I'd asked you
about coming inside
and when
you broke
all the where was I yeah
you broke all the damn eggs
standing there throwing them
against the
wall
standing outside
Wednesday, March 1, 2017
Excuse me ma'am, behind you
Not only am I old
grown older
hunched over
I'm ma'am
listing like an old ship
on ches'peake's bay
to be scuttled and shunted
& packed tightly
bonded
removed for food
see my beard?
what does that say?
any way?
nothing I figure
just hair
I move
I'll make way
I'm excused
I'm mis-id-ed
left rotten
on the booth
bar stool
ambiguously
I'm in the way
grown older
hunched over
I'm ma'am
listing like an old ship
on ches'peake's bay
to be scuttled and shunted
& packed tightly
bonded
removed for food
see my beard?
what does that say?
any way?
nothing I figure
just hair
I move
I'll make way
I'm excused
I'm mis-id-ed
left rotten
on the booth
bar stool
ambiguously
I'm in the way
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